Back From the Living Dead....

(The REAL zombie Apocalypse!)

Hello to you all.

Well, this time tomorrow it'll be two weeks "clean".

TaDA!

Today I am feeling more like my true self, that exciting and dangerous mixture of "good" and "evil", loving and fearful, pure and corrupted.

I am pleased with myself for getting this far, but I want to make it clear to you all that I am a long long way from being "....out, of the wild wild wood..." just yet.

I honestly cannot recall exactly how many times I have gotten this far before....only then of course to fall flat on my face....and back down the rabbit hole I go.....

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Not this time though.

Not if I find an eighth of the damn stuff in the street, (again!)

Not if a famous user pulls up in a stretch limo, filled with sexy young party animals and a large, full, "hospitality bowl" and invites me in for a ride!

Not even if the Devil Himself offers me a shot of the purest gear in a gold spike, for free (which of course that particular anthropomorphism would never do!)

In fact I state here and now, publicly, that if anyone out there offers me heroin, or opiates of any kind, even out of a SENSE OF MIS-GUIDED FRIENDSHIP, then I may just lose my temper with you a bit! You have been warned.

(Not that me losing my temper is all that scary a thing, well unless you happen to be too close to me at the time that is.)

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How can I be so sure though?

After all, if I have messed it up before, then I could mess it up again, right?

Right.

I could, I have that potential, but....

....I don't want to anymore....and....more crucially....

....I don't need to anymore either.

I've plumbed that particular cave now, I know where that rabbit hole goes. I do not need to explore it anymore.

However, there are many other, more interesting, Rabbit Holes in this World, as well more than a few within You, and some of them will take you to EXTRA-ORDINARY places, if you have the wit and the will to take such a Journey...

...and the willingness to let yourself be nailed to a tree for the sake of the Journey you are on....

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....As the saying goes, "when you stare into the Abyss, the Abyss stares right back into you!"....

...And I know now what I look like, because I have seen my true reflection.

I have spent so many years sat in that dark place, staring out intensely into the Infinite Void that surrounds me and seeing only one thing, me.

My reflection, staring right back.

Love Courage and Strength to you all.

A